have you ever wonder

counting down, 7 days! =))

have you all ever wonder

wat are we studying for
why must we study for
wat is the end when we study
wats out there waiting for us
after studying, wat do we want to work as
after working and all, wat really really happens?

i just suddenly reflected on my life. haha.

thinking of all this problems. there's onli one end for ALL of us. DEATH. thats wat i tink. seriously.

firstly, we all are students.
we have to go through the 10 years of education, starting from a mere puny lil person from pri one to sec 4. examinations being the gauge for us to where we stand. our first obstacle was streaming in pri 4: EM1, EM2, EM3. being godsmacked with a EM3, the onli route left was ITE. when its EM1 and EM2, the future looks pretty bright. den, our next obstacle was the PSLE. getting seperated from our 6 years of friendship..

going to a whole new sch, being a freshman. from an old girl or boy in pri sch to a freshman. relationship starts popping up. problems occurs. pimple outbreaks. and there's those dominating groups of friends.

and after that, O levels. our true turning point. JC or poly.

and, taking up the courses there's the A levels.

AND. there's those PHD and professionals and stuffs.

why is our life full of examinations?
this i cannot find an answer. it seems our life is programmed or something. go sch go sch, go work go work, get married, have children and BYE, death.


life isn't a BED OF ROSES la. its full of those freaking torns la. even if u're born with a silver spoon, its NO use la. u still have to keep up with the times, experience the unexpected. there's no easy way la. everything comes with HARDWORK.

but isn't it too much to ask us back for three weeks out of the FOUR in the june hols? wat is holidays? i seemed to have no proper definition for it anymore. it seems like sch to me. it seems just manjusri secondary school.

after O levels, we're faced with a NEW environment. either jc or poly. new friends, new subjects and all kinds la. rahhh

not onli is school giving us the stress, friends are the same

u have to differentiate the GOOD and the BAD. sometimes there's no clear line for us to differ it. sometimes they just back stab u and u wont even have a clue. sometimes they leave footprints and just go bye bye. sometimes they are just there as fair weather-ed friends.

yujuan, i truly miss you ALOT.
freak, i haven seen u for MONTHS.

relationship. its a big question mark for me now. i just wan to let u go. but i cant seem to. this has been a big problem to me. well, its all after O levels bah. if our fate still entangles, i leave it to nature la. however, if it doesn't, i wish u all the best when u find ur new girlfriend.

i suddenly wonder wat will happen to my life if i hadn't met the guys at the beginning. ya la ya la. its alex tedja and norwin. haha. they were the one whom i really trust before. haha. BEFORE LA. hahahaha. but its all thanks to them i look at life in a bigger way/wider way? haha. . and also to mummie! thanks hor. =)) i seriously find guys more simple minded. okay, they're pervert la. but they are nice la. they listen to my problems la. and they dun spread it. most importantly, they make me laugh. hahaha. and mummie! she's just oh-so-caring la. hehehe. iloveher(x

school, thanks mrgui and mrsgui for being the BEST teachers of my life. hahaha. and also my wulaoshi. thanks for counselling me, at the lowest point of my life i felt the someone cared for me.=) and mr gui for being able to tolerate my crappiness. hahaha. of catching a rocket? i tink im the weird-est. hahahaha. and mrsgui arh. for being so irritating and passing sacarstic remarks to all of us! hahahaa. and making us persevere (x. there's the underlying factor of all ur passing remarks rite? hehehe. =))

not to forget, gori pei and fishy. hahhaha. bball friends. life without u ppl in bball is so weird la. hehehehe. thanks for crossing my LIFE. (X

and boon and puay! for making my life after remedials so full of fun and SWEET . hehehe. i just love you ppl la. =))

okay. i tink even if i die now i will die with no regrets! okay, mabbe there's the regret of not paying back to my parents, not being married and not having children. hahaha. but. up till now, im pretty glad how's my life is now.

okay. i love you girls and guys la. =)))

thanks for brightening up my life.

aiya. but i regret buying the wallets for u guys la. now im like SO BROKE. lol.